LEO - THE USELESS KID
Once I believed God along with Allah, Buddha, Odin and Zeus. To me, they were just Gods in the stories; bible was just another Fantasy book as The Lord of the Rings and Dungeons & Dragons. They were fantasies that I held close as an escape from reality, somewhere I hid and refused to grow up, a dream world. That’s when I was 18 years old. Read more ...
After I came to Australia, life soon captured me like shooting fish in a barrel. I saw what a useless and naïve messed up kid I was, and was then deeply depressed by the facts that I could not see any hope, any future, any way out of my world of hurt and misery. Been too cowardly to go through my suicidal attempts, I thought for a worthless loser like me, I deserve nothing good or fortunate; my life therefore will be a pathetic journey of despair.
As life beats me senseless, that God I thought as a myth met me at the center of my hopelessness. I was invited by Pastor Cory Bourne at the brink of my mental breakdown. I was surprised that someone is willing to talk to me – a stinking loser, and even more surprised that the God from the bible, is alive in this man’s life. As a token of gratitude I came to his church to thank his kindness – never plan to stay – but never left since then. God saved me from my miserable life at that day, lifted me up from six-feet-under, washed my depressed and filthy mind clean, gave this lonely washout a home away from home, and a precious second chance to make a difference, with hope.
"After I came to Australia, life soon captured me like shooting fish in a barrel. I saw what a useless and naïve messed up kid I was, and was then deeply depressed by the facts that I could not see any hope, any future, any way out of my world of hurt and misery."
Yes I was not a drag addicted psychopath with a blow-your-minds-away conversion; I was just another mess up inadequate kid who was confused growing up. I hesitate about God in church, struggle continually with sins and desires, and still trying to turn away from bad habits over the years. You can say nothing supernatural happened visibly on this body.
But my life has changed, not by myself or any other person, but by the grace of God, that step by step, piece by piece, he putted me back together, so much that I could not by any price, deny his effort and involvement in my life. That God in the bible, now is my God, those stories in the bible, are now my stories. If you can believe, opened your heart, give God a chance to embrace you completely, then my story, could also be yours.